I am not sure what my gifts are. My husband and I have been trying to discern what God wants of us. This process is difficult when I often focus on the negative side of things. As a melancholic, I find it hard to look on the bright side, yet I appreciate beauty in life when I really slow down enough to enjoy it. As an artist, I enjoy being creative and looking at things from an unique prospective. There is color, beauty, and imagination in all things, if one takes a moment to notice.
If I think about when I was young, I turned everything into a song or story. Whether it was when I was swinging or playing with my dolls, there was music and imagination at work. My dolls usually ended up breaking into a song as well. When I had a pen in hand, I would sketch scenes in a storyboard fashion. As I grew a little older, I started keeping journals, which included poems and songs. I was always aware of extra information that was not apparent to others.
I have always enjoyed cooking and can get lost in recipes for hours. I like to serve people and see them have fun, especially when they are enjoying a dish I worked hard on. Pleasing and helping people makes me smile and feel like I have a purpose.
I am still not sure what type of calling God has in store for me. My prayer life needs tweaking in order to learn more about how God sees me. As I work on my relationship with God, he will work on my relationship with myself and the rest of the world.