Letting Go For God
I am trying to figure out where I should be in life regarding passions and gifts. I recently started back at my old job from almost 10 years ago, just in a higher position. Being there again is home. I have been longing to work there again, and I am so glad I was able to get the position I truly desired.
In terms of my spare time, I have been decluttering our house after the Christmas aftermath. I am finding that there are a lot of things I do not use and can part with. Now that I eat mostly grain-free, I have parted with my beloved bread maker, pasta maker (that I never had a chance to try), and 4-slice toaster. If I really needed to toast something, I do own a toaster oven that I use almost daily for baking. I have even found things that I forgot I had. It is like Christmas in my own house. The more I donate, the more satisfaction I have in the things I already own. There is more space in our house for the items I love.
I need to be a good steward of what I have that others may find more useful. I also need to let go of hobbies and talents that I longed to have that I don’t, considering my lack to develop them. I can then make room for where God wants me to be. Letting go of who I wanted to be is hard. I wish I could play the guitar, but I don’t have the skill or the patience for it. Unfortunately, the guitar will probably have to go.
I am saddened by the things I will never do. It leaves an emptiness for only God to fill with His plan for me. It feels very similar to when I starting cutting out grains. There is a short withdrawal period, but after that, the cravings for the junk food or things are no longer there, all that is left is room to be filled with nourishing food or spiritual discernment. Now I just have to pray that God will lead me to where I should go next.