Who We Are

We are all trying to find a place to fit in.  Some of us seem secure and comfortable with our surroundings, while others struggle to survive on the outside.  I once thought I had a high self-esteem, but now I am not so sure.  An overachiever and an offbeat at best, or a beatnik and weirdo in the eyes of others, I didn't seem to care what other people thought, but that's probably because they were already the ones I was living for. 

I strived to be noticed through my grades and stand out in some unique way.  But at the end of the day, I was exhausted pleasing everyone else.  The person I should have been pleasing was God.  This world has a way of controlling us and our feelings.  What I thought mattered, really didn't.  What I should have been feeling was so far hidden for myself to even find.  We hold on to things as a way to feel real and meaningful in this world, like us being here makes a difference.  But truthfully, through our relationship with God is the only way to leave a lastly impression in his heart and those we love.  The opposite seems to happen again and again until we figure out that we are doing something wrong.  We do not run the world, but easily it can control us.  If we left God be in control of our lives, we will be more fulfilled, loving, and needed.

God will help us to feel things we have longed for, and we will be able to do things we never thought possible.  He has already given us the skills we need to be the persons we are capable of.  Looking for his guidance will further give us definition and security in who we were meant to be.

-Tanya