Watching the Clock

Everyday we watch the clock, counting down the minutes to 5:00 p.m. Friday.  Why do we wish away the precious time we have here on earth?  We so willingly let time pass by watching too much TV, playing video games, or searching the internet.  Slowing down is difficult in this world.  We are naturally put on a fast track and expected to do the unfeasible.  We are not super heroes, we cannot do superhuman things; we are lowly servants of the Lord.  Through humility we find our way home.  God does not expect great things of us, but only our hearts.  He wants us to please him as a child would his father. 

Even while I was writing this post, it got erased.  God was telling me to start again.  I had to humble myself and begin again with him working through me.  Just as I have to take time out during my day of work to nurse or comfort my toddler.  He keeps me real and taking breaks to nurse him is a blessing for my type A personality.  I am reminded of my humanity through my weaknesses.  Feeling defeated at the end of the day makes me feel worthless.  Continually I have to drive into my head that I am not Super Woman, but a wife, mother, and child of God.  My high expectations are more than he would ask of me. 

I push myself too hard and end up feeling less than a person.  My feelings get in the way of seeing time as a gift and not a curse.  In a way, I set myself up for failure.  If I plan to fail, then I will feel like a failure.  If I plan to use my time through God, then he will rejoice with me.

-Tanya