Not a Person

Most of the time, I don't see myself as a person.  I tend to treat others better than myself, which leaves me lacking in self-care and self-esteem.  Drained and exhausted, I hobble through life not really living.  Weakened, I let others define me and control my decisions.  But God is the only one in control and the best confidant.  When I turn to him, he comforts me where others just add stress.  I forget that they too are human.  I need to rely more on God and less on the emotions of others.  Being a sensitive person, I focus too much on what other people think and want of me.  They are not me, and this is not their life.  I put too much weight on how others will react to my decisions.  Simplifying my decisions to God, myself, and my immediate family will hopefully help me act more, and react less, giving me more power as an individual and person in Christ.

-Tanya