I want to start getting into the ideas I had gotten for my website after visiting the writers' conference. I was on fire immediately following it, and now I am dragging. But after talking with this young couple and a few other new people at the picnic, I know that my husband and I could and should be doing more with our gifts. And yesterday just happen to be Pentecost Sunday where the Holy Spirit came down upon the apostles. It is a day for us to remember our gifts and the gifts of the Holy Spirit. We can use the gifts God has given us to preach and to fulfill our purpose.
I know God has great plans for my husband and I, but I am still unsure where He is taking us. But I think we first need to let Him work in small ways through our busy lives. I pray that we can start accomplishing our dreams to a fuller extent.
-Tanya Weitzel
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]]>I wasn't that hungry, after all the samples at Sam's, so I didn't get anything for myself. It was also getting past his naptime so I was trying to get him home. I had him eat while he was sitting in the carriage by setting the pizza plate on the coupon tray and the soda in the cup holder. He insisted on sharing with me. I don't know if he was getting full, if he really wanted to share, or both. He did have a few cookies already too because some grocery stores hand them out to children.
He would take one bite, and then tell me how and where I should bite the slice. Next, he would instruct me on how to take a sip of soda. And he did this multiple times, until the pizza was gone. It was like he was playing my parent. I would have been happy watching him enjoy the pizza, but if he was making me share it, how could I say no?
I miss when Linus and I would go out for lunch. I am planning on making it more of a regular thing, though hopefully not so close to his naptime in order to enjoy it more slowly. Also, it would be a good incentive for having good behavior while shopping. I told him ahead of time I had some coupons for different treats if he was good, and that seemed to help a little. One time, I treated him with a Thomas fruit snack that I had left over from his birthday party. I still have a few left for emergencies.
On Wednesday, we walked to Dunkin' Donuts because of the 99 cent medium iced coffee where 50 cents goes to the children's hospital. I asked if I could use a survey coupon where you get a free donut with the purchase of a medium beverage, and at first they said no. But Linus kept asking where his donut was, and plus he is cute, so she decided to try it in the register any way. Linus was so excited when it worked. I got him the Undercover Black Cocoa Donut because he loves stars. Of course, he had to share it. No complaining here! Since I had an iced coffee, he needed a little cup of ice to put his milk in so he could, "Cheers," me. It was too cute. There are times where his has to cheers everything at the dinner table from his straw, to his cup, and even his fork.
I really enjoy our time together. I hope to make some more memories for both of us. Linus is a truly a joy, though I might not always recognize it.
-Tanya Weitzel
]]>I sit,
I think,
and I plan for things I'll never do
and places I'll never go.
Yet, I still play with the ideas
knowing they are just dreams.
But what if dreams could be the truth?
What if everyday was a dream
coming true?
Each day is a gift,
but do I live it as such?
I am given the resources
to do and be what God needs of me.
Do I use all I have to its potential?
Am I becoming more me
with every moment I have?
As I get closer to God,
I am meeting more of myself.
As I draw Him in,
I will be able to give more of the true me.
What am I finding?
I am not sure.
I still feel like a child
learning with every breath.
God is my Father
and wants to show me my own way.
I hope someday I will understand.
But I don't think I am suppose to.
-Tanya Weitzel
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]]>People wonder when our next one will be coming. I would love to have any children God wants to give us, but right now, Linus seems to need me more than working on another child. Though ever since I held a friend's three-week-old I have been thinking about having a baby more often. The smells, little yawns, and funny noises reminded me the good times I had with Linus in the beginning. But, there was also a LOT of nursing to the point that he was either in the sling, or I was sitting down for the majority of the first year of his life. I do not miss that part of caring for a newborn.
Now that things with Linus are easier in some ways, it makes it more difficult to think about changing the family dynamic. I know that he would be jealous if we had another baby because he would not get all of my attention. On the other hand, I know that he would be a great help in fetching me anything I needed for the baby or assisting in other small ways. He would definitely make a cute older brother.
I have asked Linus (though I am not sure how much of the question he fully understands) if he wants a brother or a sister. He usually says he wants a brother because I remind him that they can be rough together when he is old enough. But I also have asked if he would like a little more time with me by himself, and he said he might need a little more. I have explained to him that there will come a day where he won't need or want to breastfeed anymore, but then he tells me that is he still little.
At the end of the day, it is still God who decides when or if we will have another child. We are open to new life, and that is our part in His plan.
-Tanya Weitzel
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]]>Last week, we were busy with Free Comic Book Day and a small local business expo. This weekend we took a family walk to the playground and then a nap. Linus was still asleeep when I left, but it was my only chance. I felt bad about leaving him with my husband without saying goodbye. Sometimes it is harder to leave when he is awake. He doesn't always want to let me leave. I wanted to hit up the Frappuccino Happy Hour on such a nice hot day. Plus, tomorrow is the last day for the promotion.
I wish I had a longer time to be out, but I will have to make due with what I have. I just enjoy it being so quiet. I am also looking forward to a Mother's Day brunch tomorrow with my mom and Grandma. It is always nice to eat out for special occasions. My dad is kindly bringing the three of us to the special event. I am planning on wearing something out of the ordinary.
Right now, I am having trouble focusing on my writing. I am trying to get my husband to turn off the slow cooker, but his phone is off. It is hard to write when I am thinking about other things, so I will just write about what is bothering me. Our house phone is set to voice mail, since Linus was still sleeping when I left. For some reason, my husband's cell phone is off as well. I am thinking I will have to go home early just to turn off the slow cooker. Not very happy about the situation, I was hoping to stay out a little longer. I haven't had any quality writing time in a long while, and now that I have a little, I have to go home early. Never mind, he just emailed me back and says, "Okay."
Not really sure what to do with the small amount of time I have, but the silence in my head is peaceful. I can better concentrate on just me, instead of a screaming toddler. While I am enjoying my brunch tomorrow, I am sending my husband and son to visit his mother for lunch. That way, no one will be alone on Mother's Day. Later, we are suppose to send Linus to his Grandma's house, so we can have a little break. Tomorrow's weather looks just as nice as today has been. I am excited about the turn of the weather because the rain and clouds were really getting old.
I hope everyone has a blessed Mother's Day tomorrow. Enjoy your families and I hope you are having beautiful weather as well.
-Tanya Weitzel
]]>I feel it pressing on me.
The passion burns.
My heart feels so warm
that it ignites my inner being.
I must do what I love.
It may burn to write,
but it hurts more not to.
-Tanya Weitzel
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